“Dexter: Harry’s Code” Scene (Photo credit: http://swishost.com/dexter-widescreen.html)
From the beginning, I loved the idea of Dexter’s character: A serial killer of serial killers. Perhaps I am too elementary spiritually, not transcended above the idea of such a system of justice. I’m not sure what it is within me that makes it gratifying, not horrifying, to think of someone killing those who kill innocent people, like my twisted sense of relief to know that child rapists often get killed in prison when their inmates discover the nature of the predator’s crimes. I feel that somehow I am wrong to think this way, and I am partly ashamed to admit having a side comfortable with such brutality. The fact that I am not entirely convinced that it is wrong to think this way, however, brings me to believe that my sense of shame is more a learned one rather than an instinctive one. So, for now at least, Dexterity, it is.
I feel, though, that I am not alone, as “Dexter” was quite a popular show, and not just for his sexy love interest, Hannah McKay (played by Yvonne Strahovsky) in the latter half of the series. I remember going into a department store and talking to a sales associate about the show when it was at the height of its popularity, and was told that the Henley shirts Dexter sported always sold out quickly. It made me wonder if the general population was as dark as I was, or if Dexter was, in fact, not really a bad guy, despite the general acceptance that killing is a bad, bad thing.
What made Dexter’s “dark passenger” a welcomed one, I believe, was “The Code,” a set of rules that was taught to Dexter by his father before he passed away:
- Never get caught.
- Never kill an innocent.
This code serves Dexter well throughout the series, both for his objectives within the context of the show as well as for his likeability as a character from the perspective of the show’s fans. His code perpetuates his survival and ability to carry justice in the most primal and efficient way. Without it, his character and story unravel.
In real life, we all must live by codes. The law has a set of codes, religions have their codes, and general society has its own code of conduct. People teeter-totter, pick and choose among these different sets of codes to create a basket of their own, some with very full baskets, adhering to every code they know, others, with fairly empty ones. The exercise of identifying one’s own personal code is important, I believe, because it forces one to examine one’s self, both internally as well as in relation to one’s world, with all the people and triggers in it. This connects us with our sense of control and, more importantly, accountability, which is a necessary moderator for the sense of power that comes with control. If there’s any ethical standard or quality control to be found, accountability is the sleuth for it.
I’ve always thought about this theory of a code of conduct, although I’d not labeled it, but I recognized its existence immediately whenever one of my unspoken codes was being violated – the protest rose in full form, from my thoughts to emotions, to the heat rising to head and my neck hairs standing up. For whatever reasons, I was made to feel and think (and when I was younger, be physical) intensely, and people would see just a facet of me, usually the peaceable side, the side I give freely to everyone in my path; the other side, the one that says Dexter can be my best friend, must be earned.
So my code consists of a justice unfazed by whatever gruesome fate must be met by an individual who gleefully causes comparable pain and destruction of an innocent life. Understanding this helps me come to terms with who I am, as Dexter had to come to terms with who he was, and to best focus my life in light of this.
My own personal code, in no particular order of importance:
- Seek truth. Every good thing needs strong roots in truth. Seek it within yourself first, so you can help others find it.
- Seek balance. This is not about becoming homogeneous; this is about living life in such a way that you are truly happy and at peace inside.
- Seek joy. “Face the sun and the shadows fall behind you.” Walk towards and amongst the positive; shine so brightly that your light is contagious.
- Seek to grow. Read, listen, learn, connect, record, reflect, venture, and think for yourself.
- Share what you find. Contribute to the good of the world; let your knowledge be a platform for others to stand upon as they build theirs.
- Be kind. Many people are hurting in the world, and your kindness may disarm their expressions of pain or salve them.
- Be open. You don’t know everything. If knowledge is power, and you need power to help or protect the powerless, stay open to keep learning.
- Be aware. It is not enough to be kind or open alone. Know what you’re dealing with. This is part of self-preservation.
- Be of service. This is another way to contribute to the good of the world, and to honor #10.
- Be grateful. Life has little meaning or joy without this.
Although not spelled out, Dexter actually did most of these things on my list, and I can say vice versa to his. (Don’t be shocked – I’ll wager most of you can say the same thing. 😉 )
This code has been fairly consistent all my life. Whenever I’ve failed to adhere to or protect it, it is like I’ve abandoned myself. Spelling it out has helped me become more aware of it to maintain its integrity.
What about you? What is your personal code, the one that defines and directs the best of who you are and want to be?